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Thursday, January 14, 2010

--> gotcha new year <--

salam alaik..huit there long time no post..yes i admit that im not in mood writing since i left my secondary school..haih im mature enough..haha..to be honest guys,,this blog of mine is just to release my stress..yess no doubt,,im using this blog whenevar i am in very bad mood,,or in other word,i am dissapointed,hurt,sad,desperate,n yg sewaktu dgnnye lah..yelah,,its better to write down what we feel rather than doing some stupid things ryte..what for nak smoking if we got problems?or maybe it can solve probs(stupid idea)..or maybe just wasting our times with *mereka2 yg merosakkan kite*?..arghh..benda nilah yg akan menjatuhkan martabat Islam tu sendiri kn..what an embarassing!..n pasal ni jugaklah,,xramai yg tau blog ni adalah wujud..adalah blog ini untuk diri i sendiri jew..hahaha...

The new year just coming,,n i am now 19 years..yeah,,im feeling good..quite mature isnt?har3..last year 2009 has passed,n to tell u guys,,i am really relieve..2009 adalah tahun yg byk menguji kesabaran kuh!..n thats,i hope that this new year will bring me more rejoice, n happening..n,become more *solehah*..amiinn..but,,bulan 1 pon x abeh lg,,n i feel a very huge dissapointed, n hurt of coures..u know i am definitely dissap
ointed n hurt with u?what is wrong with me n with u smpai nak hukum saya sehebat ni?..argghh..kalau betul niat anda untuk menjadikan saya separuh insane and menhancurkan hati saya,,anda adalah hampir berjaya..congratulations saya ucapkan..

You changes a lot,,n i really sad n hurt to know it..every single night i just thingking how to help u,how to safe u..i never forget praying for u,,the very best for u,,n all people beside me..adalah saya sentiasa ingin menjaga hati org laen,,but,adakah anda dan mereka2 ini menjaga hatiku?..yes u got me,,memang saya adalah manusia yg x suka tunjuk apa yg saya rasa,,i just keep it deep inside my heart,..thats y people said im a happy go lucky person,,a smiling gurl,n a cheerish friend..haha,,if u really know me,,dont u realize that
i am always pretend to be happy??..saya adalah letih kerana asyek menjaga hati org laen,,tetapi org x mnjaga hati saya,,but all i can do is nothing!..this is me,,..adalah saya mmg begini..huhu..every single night im just crying coz i dont find ways to get back the old u..Allah please,,im begging U,,i adore U Allah,,please safe this person,please help n always beside this person..arghh if i knew the person who influenced u,,surely ill kick n hit him@her..arrgghhh

I dont know what to say anymore,,speechless..hilang kata2 saya dek t'lampau sedih n terkilan..who am i actually?..i am sick of crying..saya dah penat asyek menangis,,tp apa boleh saya buat?..its not me who control u isnt..please,im begging u,,please back to the Quran,,back to Allah,,back to the old u,,coz im not even know u now..please,,people beside u loves u a lot..think about ur parents,their hopes,their wishes..n mine as well...please open ur eyes,,please open ur heart,,please open ur mind..i always pray for u..
ill stay by your side honest and true till the end of my time..ill never give up..



i am tired to cry every single nght





Allah de Almighty,please bring that person to the righteous,
to U n to the Quran..ammiinnn


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